Showing posts with label dysfunctional family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dysfunctional family. Show all posts

Friday, March 15, 2013

You have so much to learn!

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Your brother's B day! 

"You all Never knew why or was mislead by your mom of why guys never showed up for birthdays! When are you going to realize just how much Penny has messed up every drop of your emotions and correct way you should think & be towards your family She has kept you from knowing and causing not only disconnect but flat out ruined your brain against us! I could Never cause that especially by saying one word! We love and care for you with all out hearts, me since you were born and your brother since meeting you and realizing he has a (Only One) sibling, he emulates you and you only miss everything about him. We/I Never missed one thing of your I wasn't PREVENTED from going to you but you said how horrible fathers are for doing that but you do it. You don't know why they did it to you and your sister that you know for a huge fact it was all your moms fault with me and probably had a ton to do with the others as No Man wants to go near a woman that ruins there spirit every time they come near or even hear! You can't say that never happened a lot! I seen what Madison wrote about how your mom was to her dad all her life until I came, hmm I wonder what made her change. Grow up, take it as it Really is/was, blow it off and start over and right this time!! You know how bad your mom can be to men or you really think it's ok to do for the right reason? There is Never a good reason for any of it Ever if you know what are the right moral things are? You have so much to learn! When you think you know it all is when you know nothing and never learn another thing and it's all down hill from there! No matter who you are inside I'll always care a lot for you and your well being that it will drive me nuts as long as you act nuts like you are. You say calm down but say and do what is the worst most upsetting things you ever could say so how can I??? HOW? You Cause it then it can only be You to stop it, how do you not get it or make it that way so you can make up reasons for my actions that are never the truth to you causing it. Until you have a caring bone in your body and not ruthless and cruel with what you say that you know hits my biggest nerve that coincides with exactly with what your mom said then we can never talk, never see each other, I can never look at your picture! You do it on purpose but how could you ever think I could ever just go away/dump my kidnapped child she messed up deeper than the ocean? If I can't save you then I have to die trying! Your only ruining things for a life time or let your mom cause you to is more like it, you just don't get anything? If you don't your life is going down the tubes as no moral fiber can live in a life like that means no good can ever come out it or have good last for any length of time because the question will follow you for life! Where is your dad and family, why is he not and the only thing you can ever say is a lie, how long can you make that out to being a no feeling thing. We all grow more feelings as we grow older unless your so rooted in denial you will end up a drug addict. I know all about you, did soon after meeting you but the lies and crap going on and you never letting me talk took a horrible toll on me as I seen her take you strait to hell with her if you don't beg God for forgiveness and then me next. I'll do anything for you, be the most understanding dad you ever meet if need be but you don't want it from a life of brain washing to save face. Didn't she sound funny every time I'd say something she would all of a sudden knew something that she never said before that conflicted? Didn't the DNA test Prove beyond a shadow of a doubt your mom was a horrific liar and Everything I said fell into place making me the Only one telling you the truth in your life and then you run to her believing every lie and sarcastic tale there after hurting me beyond my limits and stressed out I could never think strait by the time we did talk. I never wanted to talk about your mom but you made everything have everything to do with everything you said that was so cruel and flat out the wackiest way of thinking I can't believe even you who wants to believe all she says could even come close to really believing even one drop of it. God help you and I pray for all of you really bad, all of you really need it! Love Dad always! No matter how bad you could get no one, even you can keep me from loving you my child, you need it!"

-March 11, 2013 10:52PM

You missed out

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Pictures Jefferson City

"You missed meeting a lot of dignitaries! Love Dad!"

Attached: 7 photos

-March, 4, 2013 11:28AM

My one sheep lost it's way Bad

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Gifted Honors report!

"It was really nice. You talked about being in government and could have been with us as the lobbyist for the gifted children's association took us all around to meet a bunch of them personally! You sure know how to miss out on everything & everyones including your own! We sat in on a session of government and got to meet the speaker of the house when he was done plus a bunch of others as we went around to all their offices and got introduced! Your brother came in third on essays they wrote on being a gifted child! They read the best ones and boy did they hit home with me! I grew up in the day they didn't understand gifted kids. One kid in his an other's were about how miss understood they are and even quit school because of that an how horribly boring school can be for one and that sure was me! Well I also had the scared to death of all the prejudice blacks to contend with and the life of nightmares to follow! Something u seem to blow off as I don't have Good reason for & make me the prejudice one because I don't like the prejudice ones?? Another oxymoron of yours! Essays said a lot about how you can only feel right around the same type people,  other smart kids,  family here as I bet yours never understood much plus was probably hurt by them being very jealous of you at times? My family was a very jealous and mean at times to me one and not understanding at all most of the time Actually made me out to being something wrong with. Those essays were all about that. I think of me and know how messed up I've been by jealous dumb assess basically an know u probably had to be miss understood a lot. U mentioned something to the contrary once and I tried to tell you how important it really was for u to get to know us because were one of the same and the family u were only let to know couldn't be anything like u muchless understand u or help you in what only gifted people do! But as usual u let the life of lies and brain washing continue and everything with your Daddy is ruined again! I understand u to a T! You need your dad bad and will never realize it until it's too late or your ruined to the max and you seem to be there? You don't understand it just makes me care for you more and hurts me even more as again you all miss understand me and they have turned into I'm a bad thing. Can't u see jealousy and guilt and out to save face ringing throughout your head and even on loud speakers going off?? My one sheep lost it's way Bad and I keep leaving my heard to try to get it home safely! As long as I know it's out there,  messed up I can never rest or be at peace! Only you can cause me to be now forever more! Come my lost one who lost its way! Love Daddy & brother!"

-March 1, 2013 8:31AM

Brother being honored

Email from Dad: Group email, in which I was included

Subject: Ricky Jr. being Honored at State Capital! 

"Hi All, Ricky Jr. is getting honored at the state capital Jefferson city on the 28th! Anyone want to go? My second gifted child is being honored for coming in third by the gifted child association for an essay he wrote. It's suppose to be in the domed building on the 28 but do not have a time yet?
Anyone wants to come I'll get back to you with a time and better instructions I hope soon.
Love Richard & Family!"

-Feb. 24, 2013 12:06PM 

**I highlighted the important part to take away from this email; he still includes me in his family, even though I have not responded to him in over two years. Regardless of the terrible things written in his texts and emails to only me, he praises me to others. 

God matters

Text from Dad: 

"God matters 2u? He has everything to do with love, caring, family, understanding n compassion, all traits u don't possess? Mom just made u want 2 hate ur Dad!:(" 

-Feb. 8, 2013 10:31PM

Against all odds!

Text from Dad: 

"Always remember U & Only U Has Ever abandoned/Dumped ur Parent/Brother, Family! Next ur own children? I proved I never have fought for them against all odds!"

-Feb. 6, 2013 11:55AM

What's in ur soul?

Text from Dad: 

" How does Daddy's already very hurt love for u cus mom not matter 2 u or what she did & then derange it all. If family matters then we do! What's in ur soul? Fam?"

-Feb. 5, 2013 12:18PM

Ricky Jr!

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Jefferson City Honors for Ricky Jr!

"Your brother who you care so much about is being honored at Jefferson city capital dome I think it is? 28th, I don't know the time yet? He came in third place state wide! If you care e me or call. Love Dad"

-Feb. 15, 2013 9:20PM


Monday, February 4, 2013

Major problems

Email from Dad: 

Subject: I/We Never abandoned you Ever! Unfathomable! Why do you abandon us?We car 
forU!


" I/We Never Ever abandoned you! It's Unfathomable to me/us! Why do you abandon us? We care so much for U no matter what! Your my child! My long lost held captive one! You lived and totally different life and seem to have been a life of lies that filled you with so much hate for Daddy! God can take that away in you in an instant if you let him? If you want it gone but I guess you can never want to believe what mom did so you will always want to hate your loving Daddy and want to make out of me what You want so I'll never look good in your eyes? You mom did a life long good job on instilling that one on you so only she will matter just like she said. Soory I can't seem to let it/you go, you meant too much to me for too long plus your my blood, my flesh. How do you let part of your own self run off so messed up in life from your mom that will have Bad affects on you for the rest of your life and very bad ones from what I seen. Every girl with Daddy issues end up really messed up bad if there not taken care of as soon as possible and you might have just went way past the age to ever make up what we could have as your going to be so set in your ways and been so stubborn, well I tried everything I could when I could your whole life but mommy always ruins it, you! You and me and your brother and the rest here that are Your Real family, not a bunch of misfits you've replaced us with, not that they don't deserve your caring but we are your family, they really are not! Just close! Still can't look at any pictures of you until a smile is for me. I just make my self sick trying and trying and you just never care, no more feelings as your mom destroyed them long ago and when they did start to rise she messed you up so bad and finished off what started to come to the surface. Your whole life has been make your dad look bad, not want to have who you think are dads. We started to be such a happy family finally, why you want to just end it like that. I can't help it that I called you on all your lies, that's all you started saying any more. I can't stand liars and will tell you about it most of the time, I can only hold back so much! I know you got major problems but quit with the I'm not who you really need in life as all dads are if your not ruined against them in the first place by a selfish mother that happens All the Time, or you blind? Come home and lets be a happy family we can always go back to being easily unless you want to make it heart braking forever? Love Dad"

-Feb. 2, 2013 3:43AM

You don't have a clue

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Daughter

"I have no problem forgiving you as I know what your mom did to you, why don't you know or want to know? You lied your head off and got caught, I understand, you don't have to go hide your head! I can't help you give me nervous brake downs. If your boy friend took your child and there wasn't a thing you could do about it how would you be like? What if you find the kid and it has had a life long life of lies made to want to hate you, it will never even want you to matter and actually only want to hurt you the first chance you give it reason to jump on back on the wagon of hating you, adding you telling it's life has been a total lie and it's dad was really the sick selfish one that it can't handle! Especially after the way it treated you, lied profusely, dumped you every other time without a drop of respect to call you as you freak out scared to death it was killed in a car wreck just like you had been told and thought died once before in a car wreck but turned out not to be it but you lived a life of the same as if it was dead and you always tread to keep it's spirit alive in the family for the main reason was because it's parent told you it never was going to meet you so you never would matter as long as you never meet, killed off your own child and now even more caring of it and it could care less about you and only rubbed in what hurts you the worse, your not family because you never grew up with it as if it was your fault and only love who kept you from growing up with it, how mixed up sicker could it get? Only family means anything to you your whole life and it only rubs in how much it makes you not family? Your family that was basically kidnapped from you and your made out to be the bad guy, how can that not bother you or want it straitened out? How do you walk away? How do you even forget it for a second after that? How are you not so heart broken you can't stand to live another day feeling so hopeless and only made to be a weirdo for caring. Why can't I be what everyone makes you into, a who cares about there kids, why do the ones who care are the one everyone wants to hurt? Why does it hurt so much? Teach me how to not feel like your mom caused to happen in you Please if your going to be a mean cruel child who doesn't know who is family and who isn't much less who should be or deserve to be anymore for a long time, like 22 year absence! Funny your the only one who has ever missed birthdays when it comes to your Dads side but you crab about others missing who you think shouldn't have had there's missed but your reasons are ok even though you never know what there real reasons were but you think there terrible for it, what are you, we don't know your reasons besides you hate to have another family to have to deal with as you said, what's that make you? You don't have a clue the horrible things you never stopped telling me, just like your mom did when she thought I was leaving her. I never was going to but took it as it was going to be like another Madison dad deal and wanted free money and no dad to have to deal with as she said she wasn't going to make that mistake again and that's just ok to you and all her lies to your that your dad wasn't behind the slammed door in his face hurting? Why do you have Deep hatred in you that you expressed the first time we talked and you told me the way you would be if that other your so called dad came to see you you said you would want to see and once and that was it? Your mom lies don't just go away and she caused you look so bad as you lied to her and got so caught up in them and I gave you reason to find something to hate me for then you went all out and never let me look good, even caused me to be so hurt I never could be right ever since, you sent me to the hospital because of how bad you are! That make you a good person in anyway, I don't know how you can even sleep at night much less act nice to anyone without feeling like the biggest fake and can never say family means anything to you after this? We know Penny messed you up and will always be here to help you understand it and not want you to hate your mom that you will never see if you keep on the same tract. You sure went down the worse one you could have instead rather hurt me as bad as you could and did, God see everything you do, if I see it all you know what he knows. Save your self before it's too late! God will ruin you, your mom did a good enough job and we understand that but you keep it going he will ruin you and every relationship you will ever have, your so messed up I don't see how you could ever have one, if they find out what you did to your dad and family means anything to them then you will be gone! No one wants someone who hurts there dad or mom for Any reason! God only asks ten things of you and you braking a bunch of them! We want to forgive you but you have to want to first then ask or you never will be and will have the worst feeling to have to live with for the rest of your life and that I hope will be for a very long time, good luck with that! Love Dad"

-Jan. 28, 2013 12:55AM

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Blood relatives are the Only Real relatives!

Text from Dad: 

"Does God matter to you? You're parents, only Real brother you have? If you can marry your brother then he really isn't your brother! Quit being srewedup &missi"

-Jan. 27, 2013 11:15AM

"Blood relatives are the Only Real relatives! Haven't you lived enough lies in your life time? Missed enough of who will matter most when you get older & wake up"

-Jan. 27, 2013 12:58PM 

"Guilt was my only defense against this unGodly evil thinking& u say y have trained yourself not to feel it? What options r left for a Dad of kidnapped child?"

-Jan. 27, 2013 7:36PM

Get it?

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Who can get over child being kidnapped? Get it?

"Hello dear,  I wish you could get over all your Daddy issues! I wish I could get over my daughter being kidnapped & brainwashed that you will realize one day and know what it did to me? Sorry I do have problems after having so many problems seeing so much bad happen to my friends and family by blacks that doesn't just go away but I still say I've never been prejudice at heart, just get very upset when I think of it all and the memories flood back, hard to contain myself, same with your mother.  I'll never hate anyone deep down and always want good for all and to happen!  Same as I want for you no matter what you say or do! I care too much so it comes out too over the top? When things mean a lot to you it's hard to keep under control when you only see it out of control all the time! Family mean anything to you yet? Miss you bad! Missed your life, bad! Love Dad"

-Jan. 23, 2013 12:33AM 

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Love Dad!

Texts from Dad: 

"How could u ever dump ur mom? How could u ever do the same 2 dad especially after what mom did 2 dad? U know what dysfunctional family is that u live"


-Jan. 12, 2013 12:17AM

"We had a very great chance at being a happy family with both sides if we had a very serious talk first! Why u think mom ran away. U been so lost & wrong thats y"

-Jan. 12, 2013 11:53AM

"U try 2 make things there not & would never ever work! Knowing the truth & going from there in a loving way is the way 2 go! Grow up & start new! Love Dad!"

-Jan. 12, 2013 11:59AM