You will get a disease..

Email from Dad: 

**WARNING: Explicit Language**

Subject: Daughter 

"How are you? I'm doing better most of the time, You are my very lost child and it hurts and there has never been anything I can do about it but look as I'm always made out to being bad and Never having a say or combat it, even made to look bad for Caring for my own (kidnapped) child?? I've Always Cared and been tore apart over it until I met you and seen what she did to your brain and of course who can handle that? What have they done to your brain to ever make a parent bad for caring so much for they kid who was basically killed off by a selfish mother and I made you out to being a little saint all your life, just as anyone does or speaks of the dead? Why don't you ever get anything or your moms action after being busted or even yours? Understand mine because what was Really done to me? Please grow up because all I can do is hurt so much more intensely since I found what they caused you to say and do! The daughter who I've cared about more than anything on the planet as you were all I ever had in life and cared about for a very long time, sorry people cling to family and who you would think would care about you no matter what especially if they knew what the other parent did to them. Family is the only in life people normally really care about and when you get older it is more so. Sorry I ever cared and can never be like the cold rotten dads you've only known and will probably always end up treating all men like your mom has and ended up alone for a very long time before it made her wake up! You are So Cold Just Like her when you think you should be or have reason to that is a horrible way to be. There is Never a reason to be that cold almost to anyone! You'll see when you have a child and expect to be able to protect it and someone takes your child and tells you she never wants it to know any of your family so no harm done as she lies and brain washes your own flesh and blood much to never wanted to know you and said that before we ever met and you jumped on what you could misconstrue and turn into what you could deem a reason to go back to the only thing you ever felt so you could be sickly cold blooded and NEVER being anything close to trying to be understanding to what I was saying. I never like talking about what blacks did to me because as you seen it really starts making me mad but I was trying to get you to understand my sorry ass life no one seems to give a shit about me then or you now, I was abandon and it killed me what your mom done to you/us an made you think I did you! It hits deeper than anything and why I'm so pissed when everything ever said and done has been all from mom lies mostly just to save face, she would do and say anything to keep you from hating her for what she plainly did to me because of Madison's dad mainly. You will Never understand or care to and only be ruined against your own family Never talking it over with me with no trust or compassion! Only live with hate and never can have a relationship if you always so judgmental and that means your full of prejudices! Your the most prejudice stuck up girl I ever seen? I'm your dad and really care about it but your so bad you won't even talk to your own dad, Never ever have really, almost did at first until you let everyone ruin you because of your moms lies to everyone and her trying to save face! If anyone knew the truth and me they would be at my door and wanting me over when ever I could. You have no clue what your loosing out on for the Rest Of Your Life? That might be why you don't want to know I guess because you know I'm a good person, probably too good that you never been around before, even Max is not even that great and pretty much heartless and only used you to make him look good for his fiance, you don't know people at all or how they All use you, even your friends, even your bot friends only want one thing, if you wasn't such a horny toad obviously you would know if you ever never gave them some for awhile and if they hung around then they really care for you if you make them think for real there not getting any for a very long time, if they don't they really don't like you, only what they know what they can get. Your messed up and will get a disease you know messing around and there is a bunch out there that you will never be able to have children if you get much less die from others. All girls or way more wanting guys attention and doing it right away who have daddy issues. You know what you sound and look like? The last time I was waiting to pick you up you was going on like you was a huge slut, I don't know if you know what you sound and look like like when you was talking to your room mate, you obviously wanted him to think he could do you if he wanted as your the wild thing and always run off screwing guys you don't know for days. That's how I took it and seen he took it that way also. He seemed like a really nice upstanding guy and you will never get a guy like that acting like that. Your going to start looking like your a girl with something doing stuff like that. You were acting like you ran off and was staying with some guy for day because he hadn't seen you in days but know you weren't and you think your wild and that's cool your crazy, that is not how guys take that inside, maybe out side for you. I think it was when your sister came home. I can't figure out just about everything if I want to and see what and why you do what you do and your so lost and messed up from not having a Good respectable Dad to help you in life, tell you things your mom never can, well your mom has had it wrong most of her life as her life proves it. I think the only thing she was good at is raising small children but then her brain doesn't understand people and life after that much. I been meeting new people every day cutting hair and like now talking to every kind of people there is all day long selling real estate, use to sell cars all the time when I was young, I know people better than all of you put together. I know you want to be and look like a good girl but your so off, been raised so naively about so much it's really pathetic. I know I'm a bit too protective and say too much and might even ruin being free feeling because I seen too much but in this world you have to hear and know about this world an what's it's really all about. Just like girls say things they'd never say or let on to a guy goes the same with guys that you obviously never heard before and same with blacks and it all makes me so sad being so easily manipulated by everyone and I seen in you a deep down good girl I never was prouder to know but God your so lost and miss led it makes me want to cry. Got to go, I love and care for you so much! Love Dad"

-Feb. 10, 2013 11:09PM

HUGE Regrets!

Text from Dad: 

"28th Jefferson City dome Your only Real blood Brother is getting honored for coming in 3rd on an essay he wrote. Would you come? Why have u abandon ur family?"

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:10AM

"Please come! It would mean a lot to him! He cares alot for u still as I do! I know what ur mom did 2u, u just don't get it yet but will 1 day the HUGE Regrets!!"

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:26AM

"If u ever want 2 come close 2 understanding me 1st know what ur mom did 2 me & then what she said & did 2 u! The truth will set any1 free of errors & guilt! Lov" 

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:37AM

Save OUR Family!

Text from Dad: 

"I think you did start 2 feel as u realized what ur mom really did & the way u was treating me, o my God. I guess that would put any1 in denial? Save OUR Family!" 

-Feb. 4, 2013 10:55AM

Selfish mom

Text from Dad: 

"When u coming home? Live near city, get good job here! Catch up & bond with your family that selfish mom forced u to miss out on! Stop braking my heart! LoveDad"

-Feb. 2, 2013 4:40AM 

Major problems

Email from Dad: 

Subject: I/We Never abandoned you Ever! Unfathomable! Why do you abandon us?We car 
forU!


" I/We Never Ever abandoned you! It's Unfathomable to me/us! Why do you abandon us? We care so much for U no matter what! Your my child! My long lost held captive one! You lived and totally different life and seem to have been a life of lies that filled you with so much hate for Daddy! God can take that away in you in an instant if you let him? If you want it gone but I guess you can never want to believe what mom did so you will always want to hate your loving Daddy and want to make out of me what You want so I'll never look good in your eyes? You mom did a life long good job on instilling that one on you so only she will matter just like she said. Soory I can't seem to let it/you go, you meant too much to me for too long plus your my blood, my flesh. How do you let part of your own self run off so messed up in life from your mom that will have Bad affects on you for the rest of your life and very bad ones from what I seen. Every girl with Daddy issues end up really messed up bad if there not taken care of as soon as possible and you might have just went way past the age to ever make up what we could have as your going to be so set in your ways and been so stubborn, well I tried everything I could when I could your whole life but mommy always ruins it, you! You and me and your brother and the rest here that are Your Real family, not a bunch of misfits you've replaced us with, not that they don't deserve your caring but we are your family, they really are not! Just close! Still can't look at any pictures of you until a smile is for me. I just make my self sick trying and trying and you just never care, no more feelings as your mom destroyed them long ago and when they did start to rise she messed you up so bad and finished off what started to come to the surface. Your whole life has been make your dad look bad, not want to have who you think are dads. We started to be such a happy family finally, why you want to just end it like that. I can't help it that I called you on all your lies, that's all you started saying any more. I can't stand liars and will tell you about it most of the time, I can only hold back so much! I know you got major problems but quit with the I'm not who you really need in life as all dads are if your not ruined against them in the first place by a selfish mother that happens All the Time, or you blind? Come home and lets be a happy family we can always go back to being easily unless you want to make it heart braking forever? Love Dad"

-Feb. 2, 2013 3:43AM

Ruin me!

Text from Dad: 

"You were held Captive! Same exact thing as Kidnapped! How do u not get it or me or think the one who held u captive won't keep u deceived 2 save face & Ruin me!"

-Feb. 1, 2013 1:23AM

"She has spent ur life time deceiving u & ruining me in your eyes so I'll never matter & you'll never even be able to or want to think bad of her, only hate me?"

-Feb. 1, 2013 1:28AM 

Blood relatives are the Only Real relatives!

Text from Dad: 

"Does God matter to you? You're parents, only Real brother you have? If you can marry your brother then he really isn't your brother! Quit being srewedup &missi"

-Jan. 27, 2013 11:15AM

"Blood relatives are the Only Real relatives! Haven't you lived enough lies in your life time? Missed enough of who will matter most when you get older & wake up"

-Jan. 27, 2013 12:58PM 

"Guilt was my only defense against this unGodly evil thinking& u say y have trained yourself not to feel it? What options r left for a Dad of kidnapped child?"

-Jan. 27, 2013 7:36PM

Nightmare

Text from Dad: 

"First u need 2 realize I'm ur parent & then u were held captive & then all the rest would make sense! More reason for me 2 want this nightmare overwith & hurtby"

-Jan. 14, 2013 8:02AM

Love Dad!

Texts from Dad: 

"How could u ever dump ur mom? How could u ever do the same 2 dad especially after what mom did 2 dad? U know what dysfunctional family is that u live"

-Jan. 12, 2013 12:17AM

"We had a very great chance at being a happy family with both sides if we had a very serious talk first! Why u think mom ran away. U been so lost & wrong thats y"

-Jan. 12, 2013 11:53AM

"U try 2 make things there not & would never ever work! Knowing the truth & going from there in a loving way is the way 2 go! Grow up & start new! Love Dad!"

-Jan. 12, 2013 11:59AM

No conscience

Text from Dad: 

"How can any1 get over having ur kid kidnaped then u treat me worse than a deadbeat dad just like u always wanted 2 right? No conscience, sheruinedU 2wards dads"

-Jan. 11, 2013 11:58PM

Kid kidnapped

Text from Dad: 

" Ud think having ur kid kidnapped is bad but find it & it never talks 2 u right & only calls u names & wants 2 hate u? What mom make dad in ur eyes while captive?"

-Jan. 10, 2013 10:59AM

Blatent kidnapper!

Text from Dad: 

"Penny is a blatent kidnapper! I figured shed go back 2 the mistake thing Only for conscience sake! What she said was Never a mistake! Ever! Ruined U 2wards Dady"

-Jan. 9, 2013 1:03PM

Righting her wrong?

Text from Dad: 

"What do u call a mother when u ask her for help with ur daughter she calls the police on u? Call that righting her wrong? Look at what she did 2 u & me!"

-Jan. 9, 2013 12:50AM

Why do it if not wanted?

Email from Dad: 

**WARNING: Explicit language**

Subject: If Really messed up U draw all Dads attention! Why do it if not wanted?

"If ur Really messed up U will draw all your caring Dads attention! Duh! Why do it if not wanting it? I know you do but been so conflicted by the other side, the life of lies deep in you and then realize just how bad you been if what I said is true and then hide your head and go into denial! That is the same thing your mom did! Why all keep up the horrific acts towards just another loving, caring parent? Your Dad has always been there for you & will be even more so if your really messed up and you couldn't be more so and that's a Fact! If U don't want me all consumed then why cause just what will draw All of my attention because Dad Will Always be there for U, very caring of your well being & especially your soul! You let a life of lies & brain washing make it out to being everything but what it plainly is? Caring Dearly! Fact! Especially Dad being made out to being anything less than being a very caring of his child Parent/Father will hurt him immeasurably! See what a life of lies Will cause because if you weren't brought up like that, grew up with us you would want to know what caused what might disturb you, not make up everything under the sun to hate me for! That's the huge difference and proof just how brain washed you are! Fact, I care, I'm your parent, always have been, the one who is suppose to care and will only be one who will over anyone else on the planet that you will find out about one day, hopefully not too late and then mentally screwed up for life after your immoral actions done set in and then there's nothing you can ever do to make up for it once your chance is gone! You've had a life of feeling abandonment, even by your own mom from what you told me but she picked up on that and all she done and she is able to be around you and made good use of it and you two made up big time that is great but I also see she took what was going out in you for your dad and sucked up every drop of it she could all for her benefit and left me dry again and kept up the cutting me down that brought back every bad feeling she ever caused you to have for me by her life of lies. Her selfish ass has stolen all our family love you might ever have had for us since you were born to even when I came. Ruining what I am and look like to you in your mind so bad all you done is look for reasons to hate me and even told me so and if you don't believe me you want me to quote you? I know she messed you up but you refused to be cooperative the entire time really! TRY for Once! Love Dad"

-Jan. 8 2013, 1:50PM 

All my attention?

Text from Dad: 

" Ur Dads always there for U! Why U have all my attention? Cus u been horribly messed up! Why draw it if U don't want it? Inside u do, bained washed 2 not?"

-Jan. 8, 2013 11:12AM

A must see! Do!

Email from Dad: 

Subject: A must see! Do!



-Jan. 6, 2013 9:41PM

Only Knowledge and truth will set you/us free!

Email from Dad: 

**WARNING: Explicit language**

Subject: Only Knowledge will set you/us free!

"Going back to the beginning. My love for you was developed when you were born! Greatly intensified by being told she wanted to never let any of us meet or even tell me if you were a girl or boy much less your name that I got from investigating, talking to the hospital were you were born to make sure you were mine so I Wasn't some ass before I took her to court that I did set up but then had no money to pay for and had tried to do ever since but adding back child support, present and court cost it was always way out of my reach even father as time went on that I thought then! Your bonded way more to me than a normal parent and his love for his child but is a good thing as it some times takes a tragic accident to cause in others to make them that close! I'm sorry Penny did just the opposite to you, driving the biggest wedge she ever could insert between us in your mind with lies! You have to get over the lies and know they were, you don't have to hate her for having problems back then as you make it out to what you would do if you let the Real truth in. Plus now you'll look bad for how you been to me and just make up reason after reason to hate me but cause me to say and do everything you don't like, yes you say just the right thing and I will have say just what your going to dislike like saying your mom did it, not I or try to combat what you know is horribly insensitive to me and know I'm just a dad of a kidnapped girl, how else would any man act if his kid was kidnapped or doesn't fathers have feeling? You make men/fathers out to be cold and heartless and said they were to me and now as if you want to hurt their/my very soul so bad I can't handle it. It's one thing your mom doing it but you join in is just nothing I can handle without flipping my lid over! You said one time and I took it as you hated dads, remember the miss birthdays, don't come around much and of course everyone thought you had the worst of them all and you prove that has always bubbled up in you! ALL LIES By Your Loving Mother! Hated Dad Because of her! You make it boil up in me when I believe in God and make it his place to punish if he sees fit and I'm just suppose to forgive and forget! Just as I do but have problems with when I think of all the prejudice blacks I met and seen rape pillage and kill people on. That's why I try not to talk about it because it brings up hatred of the evil they and your mom has done! You force me to go there, talk about her, I NEVER Wanted to but have to because she fills you with lies! But I don't want to hate her or anyone! God takes care of them all! It's not up to us or you to punish me for what I never did or not bond with because of some sick lies and crap you been brought up by! Truth is your my long lost child I been dying to unite with as any parent is with there child much less a kidnapped one, so much more important for me and you, you just don't know anything yet and been ruined to try or trust Daddy! Why do you burden me so? Hurt me so, you draw my attention and then hurt me with never talking and when you did it was always so hurtful and run away so I can't even combat or even comment on it to try to change your messed up way of thinking your mom put in you long ago! Brain washed so bad you care less what you do to me or what happens to me and your brother and the rest here obviously? Only a real caring action by you can prove me wrong, I been right about everything, that is what kills you the most as you try to ruin who I am and what I am and is compared to who you thought was the best parent I proved you had ass backwards your whole life and especially you seem to not take being duped well. God takes care of all, I hope he is easy on you but then you will feel as if what you done was ok if you don't have or feel bad or bad things happen to you because of doing such immoral things to me along with everyone over there is lies to and misguided but never give way to be immoral to anyone for any reason! Not one! Even if the brake one of the ten commandments as you are every day of your life you leave me hurting from you and your moms actions. That is the same as killing someone everyday you know? I guess not? God forgives as I always want to! But you have to ask and then prove it by your actions immediately! Like proving you care! Below is what I started writing earlier but it always go arye and usually just delete it as you never read anything anyway because you can handle the truth in any form because you have went so arye! When are you going to be ready to help your self and me/us! Your family mend?

Love Dad

Taking a peaceful vaca away from Everyone is the best thing u can do before you ever can think clearly?

We never had to have a discussion but when you do & say what you have then we Have to have one! YOU Force me to try to combat all the lies your mom obviously brought you up by. Pitting you against me that you prove has affected you so bad, you Never even Let me defend one thing or change your mind in anyway, that is as bad pitted against a person as anyone ever could be! Worse than cults ruining children against there family's so only they don't matter? Don't you get it, see it? If you never have a discussion so no one who knows the truth and is willing to try to help change your life long mind set, then you prove your pitted/brain washed as you won't Let anyone change your mind, so you feel righteous about mom and now your all being cruel basically? If you went to church like you said you did then God will always bother your conscience about it! You can't get far enough away from it no matter how far you go! Funny, the father you do get away the worse it gets especially if you can't get back here easily! Taking Peaceful vacations away from everyone is the best thing for you usually where there is NO interference by either side, then you know who is good and who you should be spending time with for now. Like the Dad who was done so wrong that even if it was a mistake can never not make anyone to not want to make up for what was done to him and account for the hurt and pain or abandonment you now put on him that is so hurtful, painful and you act like I'm out of line? Only Everyone over there is and you know it and hurt by it especially when I found you was lying to them and then get so caught up in it all you forgot what lie you told who and who you was talking to and I called you on all your lies and then you all look bad so you go back to hiding your head in the dirt. I understand every drop of it and what caused it, mom in a nut shell and her making me out to be nothing to you just as she even told me she was going to do but I refused to believe it and tried my best to make sure your spirit was always alive here but didn't realize how badly ours were not there, well was just ruined us beyond repair especially when you never let us repair it! You said you didn't know if you wanted to have us and THEY Caused so much trouble you didn't want to deal with it, also pitted and guilt tripped you into believing only who you grew up with is suppose to matter and Not Family? If family matters and is important to you then everyone of us should matterjust as much to you and want each one to love you as much as each one over there does! You can Never say were not family when you were held illegally against your other Parents will! That is as far from abandoning you as you can get but just how you treat me as if I did! That Changes Everything that you just don't seem to get?? You also don't get when your lacking so many family members creates such a void of family members you try to replace them with others but you never can say I'm not your Parent/Dad especially after what your mom did to me! Do I have to keep saying that which you hate but cause me to do at every turn, then say I'm trying to pit you against her, it is so nuts, wake up on what your doing and causing and watch what You say if don't like what will no doubt be said back? I think it's what's inside you that causes it, internal sensors look for the truth and whos lying by what you should know will be my reactions after says things to who never did to you what your mom put deep in you, making me hurt and then in turn angers me when anyone is hurt and Have to say something and you have a life of lies making you hate me your whole life and keeps coming out in you that you seem to want to deny, prove me a bad guy and have stretched things to so far fetched as being me it's gotten ridiculous! You know what she did deep down and don't have to look far for proof, just look at how she's been to Madison's dad, that hatred always showed until I came and should know it came down on me as I came in the picture in the height of her hatred for him came out when you were born and even thinking of me as just another Madison dad and child by she was going to have to deal with was totally unacceptable for her at the time! Truth hurts but you don't have to send the messenger to the hospital because you don't like or want to believe it do you? Not much needed to be said really but you let the scare you and get so protective! Just knowing there was a mistake should have changed you totally and been here every day for awhile any way showing us how much of a loving caring person you are and wanting it all mended and forgotten! You instead turned it into a super heightened hurtful thing keeping you on the top of our list of conciseness because of how messed up you are and there were keeping you in the state of! Never even wanting you to talk to us so you won't become attached, remember you saying that but then listened to lies again as they worked on you and never letting me comment! You sat right there and heard your mom change her story of when we meet, all of a sudden she remembered?? We got together after Halloween, she said all of a sudden that is when we quit going out, didn't that sound funny? Didn't the DNA test prove just how much she has lied and manipulated you that you hate to ever think she did/done/doing to you? What she has/is/doing to you Drives me nut when you never ever talked to me really in your life! How fair has that been? How do you let it go on for another minute" 

-Jan. 6, 2013 2:47PM 

Hurt people in ur wake?

Text from Dad: 

"U have a habit of leaving horrifically hurt people in ur wake? U don't even care about family! What have u done to the other 1/2 of ur family at times? I care!U"

-Jan. 7, 2013 10:43PM

God help us!!

Texts from Dad: 

"U ur self said u wait 2 long! Didn't get 2 show u cared? Penny caused so much pain u don't want 2 fathom! U hurt me making me mad then bad for it? God help us!!"

-Jan. 6, 2013 8:57AM

"If U only care about mom & her family side then U prove ur Pitted against us cus no one dumps their family for any other reason especialy after finding she lied"

-Jan. 6, 2013 10:44AM

"How do U defend NEVER having a discussion with ur parent about ur problems & the 2 times u did u only lied? Who is messed, who u messing up? Everyone! Even U!"

-Jan. 6, 2013 10:53AM

"If u don't even give Dad a chance 2 channge ur mind then u prove mom pitted u against me! Dare u 2 have a discussion! 2 scared you'll look bad, 2 late!Try Now"

-Jan. 6, 2013 11:09AM

Raised 2 hate

Texts from Dad: 

"Coming over never showed u cared when u refuse 2 talk 2 me about Big problems then call me names. How long can U go with lies about Dad who shouldn't matter?"


-Jan. 5, 2012 1:51AM

"If ur raised 2 hate/not care about other parent isn't that total brain washing & pittning u against me when I say one bad word about it/her, who deserves what??"


-Jan. 5, 2013 12:23PM