Friday, March 15, 2013

What's in ur soul?

Text from Dad: 

" How does Daddy's already very hurt love for u cus mom not matter 2 u or what she did & then derange it all. If family matters then we do! What's in ur soul? Fam?"

-Feb. 5, 2013 12:18PM

Ricky Jr!

Email from Dad: 

Subject: Jefferson City Honors for Ricky Jr!

"Your brother who you care so much about is being honored at Jefferson city capital dome I think it is? 28th, I don't know the time yet? He came in third place state wide! If you care e me or call. Love Dad"

-Feb. 15, 2013 9:20PM


You will get a disease..

Email from Dad: 

**WARNING: Explicit Language**

Subject: Daughter 

"How are you? I'm doing better most of the time, You are my very lost child and it hurts and there has never been anything I can do about it but look as I'm always made out to being bad and Never having a say or combat it, even made to look bad for Caring for my own (kidnapped) child?? I've Always Cared and been tore apart over it until I met you and seen what she did to your brain and of course who can handle that? What have they done to your brain to ever make a parent bad for caring so much for they kid who was basically killed off by a selfish mother and I made you out to being a little saint all your life, just as anyone does or speaks of the dead? Why don't you ever get anything or your moms action after being busted or even yours? Understand mine because what was Really done to me? Please grow up because all I can do is hurt so much more intensely since I found what they caused you to say and do! The daughter who I've cared about more than anything on the planet as you were all I ever had in life and cared about for a very long time, sorry people cling to family and who you would think would care about you no matter what especially if they knew what the other parent did to them. Family is the only in life people normally really care about and when you get older it is more so. Sorry I ever cared and can never be like the cold rotten dads you've only known and will probably always end up treating all men like your mom has and ended up alone for a very long time before it made her wake up! You are So Cold Just Like her when you think you should be or have reason to that is a horrible way to be. There is Never a reason to be that cold almost to anyone! You'll see when you have a child and expect to be able to protect it and someone takes your child and tells you she never wants it to know any of your family so no harm done as she lies and brain washes your own flesh and blood much to never wanted to know you and said that before we ever met and you jumped on what you could misconstrue and turn into what you could deem a reason to go back to the only thing you ever felt so you could be sickly cold blooded and NEVER being anything close to trying to be understanding to what I was saying. I never like talking about what blacks did to me because as you seen it really starts making me mad but I was trying to get you to understand my sorry ass life no one seems to give a shit about me then or you now, I was abandon and it killed me what your mom done to you/us an made you think I did you! It hits deeper than anything and why I'm so pissed when everything ever said and done has been all from mom lies mostly just to save face, she would do and say anything to keep you from hating her for what she plainly did to me because of Madison's dad mainly. You will Never understand or care to and only be ruined against your own family Never talking it over with me with no trust or compassion! Only live with hate and never can have a relationship if you always so judgmental and that means your full of prejudices! Your the most prejudice stuck up girl I ever seen? I'm your dad and really care about it but your so bad you won't even talk to your own dad, Never ever have really, almost did at first until you let everyone ruin you because of your moms lies to everyone and her trying to save face! If anyone knew the truth and me they would be at my door and wanting me over when ever I could. You have no clue what your loosing out on for the Rest Of Your Life? That might be why you don't want to know I guess because you know I'm a good person, probably too good that you never been around before, even Max is not even that great and pretty much heartless and only used you to make him look good for his fiance, you don't know people at all or how they All use you, even your friends, even your bot friends only want one thing, if you wasn't such a horny toad obviously you would know if you ever never gave them some for awhile and if they hung around then they really care for you if you make them think for real there not getting any for a very long time, if they don't they really don't like you, only what they know what they can get. Your messed up and will get a disease you know messing around and there is a bunch out there that you will never be able to have children if you get much less die from others. All girls or way more wanting guys attention and doing it right away who have daddy issues. You know what you sound and look like? The last time I was waiting to pick you up you was going on like you was a huge slut, I don't know if you know what you sound and look like like when you was talking to your room mate, you obviously wanted him to think he could do you if he wanted as your the wild thing and always run off screwing guys you don't know for days. That's how I took it and seen he took it that way also. He seemed like a really nice upstanding guy and you will never get a guy like that acting like that. Your going to start looking like your a girl with something doing stuff like that. You were acting like you ran off and was staying with some guy for day because he hadn't seen you in days but know you weren't and you think your wild and that's cool your crazy, that is not how guys take that inside, maybe out side for you. I think it was when your sister came home. I can't figure out just about everything if I want to and see what and why you do what you do and your so lost and messed up from not having a Good respectable Dad to help you in life, tell you things your mom never can, well your mom has had it wrong most of her life as her life proves it. I think the only thing she was good at is raising small children but then her brain doesn't understand people and life after that much. I been meeting new people every day cutting hair and like now talking to every kind of people there is all day long selling real estate, use to sell cars all the time when I was young, I know people better than all of you put together. I know you want to be and look like a good girl but your so off, been raised so naively about so much it's really pathetic. I know I'm a bit too protective and say too much and might even ruin being free feeling because I seen too much but in this world you have to hear and know about this world an what's it's really all about. Just like girls say things they'd never say or let on to a guy goes the same with guys that you obviously never heard before and same with blacks and it all makes me so sad being so easily manipulated by everyone and I seen in you a deep down good girl I never was prouder to know but God your so lost and miss led it makes me want to cry. Got to go, I love and care for you so much! Love Dad"

-Feb. 10, 2013 11:09PM

HUGE Regrets!

Text from Dad: 

"28th Jefferson City dome Your only Real blood Brother is getting honored for coming in 3rd on an essay he wrote. Would you come? Why have u abandon ur family?"

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:10AM

"Please come! It would mean a lot to him! He cares alot for u still as I do! I know what ur mom did 2u, u just don't get it yet but will 1 day the HUGE Regrets!!"

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:26AM

"If u ever want 2 come close 2 understanding me 1st know what ur mom did 2 me & then what she said & did 2 u! The truth will set any1 free of errors & guilt! Lov" 

-Feb. 16, 2013 9:37AM

Monday, February 4, 2013

Save OUR Family!

Text from Dad: 

"I think you did start 2 feel as u realized what ur mom really did & the way u was treating me, o my God. I guess that would put any1 in denial? Save OUR Family!" 

-Feb. 4, 2013 10:55AM

Selfish mom

Text from Dad: 

"When u coming home? Live near city, get good job here! Catch up & bond with your family that selfish mom forced u to miss out on! Stop braking my heart! LoveDad"

-Feb. 2, 2013 4:40AM 

Major problems

Email from Dad: 

Subject: I/We Never abandoned you Ever! Unfathomable! Why do you abandon us?We car 
forU!


" I/We Never Ever abandoned you! It's Unfathomable to me/us! Why do you abandon us? We care so much for U no matter what! Your my child! My long lost held captive one! You lived and totally different life and seem to have been a life of lies that filled you with so much hate for Daddy! God can take that away in you in an instant if you let him? If you want it gone but I guess you can never want to believe what mom did so you will always want to hate your loving Daddy and want to make out of me what You want so I'll never look good in your eyes? You mom did a life long good job on instilling that one on you so only she will matter just like she said. Soory I can't seem to let it/you go, you meant too much to me for too long plus your my blood, my flesh. How do you let part of your own self run off so messed up in life from your mom that will have Bad affects on you for the rest of your life and very bad ones from what I seen. Every girl with Daddy issues end up really messed up bad if there not taken care of as soon as possible and you might have just went way past the age to ever make up what we could have as your going to be so set in your ways and been so stubborn, well I tried everything I could when I could your whole life but mommy always ruins it, you! You and me and your brother and the rest here that are Your Real family, not a bunch of misfits you've replaced us with, not that they don't deserve your caring but we are your family, they really are not! Just close! Still can't look at any pictures of you until a smile is for me. I just make my self sick trying and trying and you just never care, no more feelings as your mom destroyed them long ago and when they did start to rise she messed you up so bad and finished off what started to come to the surface. Your whole life has been make your dad look bad, not want to have who you think are dads. We started to be such a happy family finally, why you want to just end it like that. I can't help it that I called you on all your lies, that's all you started saying any more. I can't stand liars and will tell you about it most of the time, I can only hold back so much! I know you got major problems but quit with the I'm not who you really need in life as all dads are if your not ruined against them in the first place by a selfish mother that happens All the Time, or you blind? Come home and lets be a happy family we can always go back to being easily unless you want to make it heart braking forever? Love Dad"

-Feb. 2, 2013 3:43AM